today wasn't any better. can you believe that? and i don't even have a good picture to show for it today :(!!!
i had to spend the whole of my only childless morning getting my hair done (which DESPERATELY needed to be done, TRUST ME! i've been waiting weeks longer than i should have to go so that it would be done & stay looking decent until i can get back after the baby), only to have my hairdresser tell me the color just isn't taking as it usually does due to my hormones (???!!!??!!!! #**%#@!!!!!!!!). then i got to pay the exorbitant amount of money that getting your hair done costs these days & walk out wanting to cry. hormones are wrecking my life!
and hudson was acting stinky again, throwing fits @ many a turn.
and clint's car needs a $1000 repair. (the worst part being that the whole car is barely worth $1000)
so with all of this & a few other later incidents (like you know, it hitting me again that hudson's big boy bed isn't finished, his walls aren't painted, his quilt not finished...), i was ready to melt away. AWAY!
feeling sorry for yourself feels good for a little while, you know? and then you think about something like Haiti & you then feel even worse than when you started!
so i did that whole thing - i felt sorry for myself. really sorry. & then i felt horrible for feeling sorry, which really didn't help. then i just let myself feel frustrated, because that's just how i felt!
THEN i started to take some deep breaths & tried to relax. i thought about what i needed to learn & what god's bringing me in the midst of this situation.
& THEN i started thinking about all the things i'm so very thankful for (like being alive, for one! forget hair color!) & that's when i started to feel better. (though i'm still a little concerned when i pass a mirror!)
i also thought about what kind thing i could do for myself, as i was feeling so stressed. i think we often forget to take care of ourselves, you know? i decided doing a little sewing & eating a little chocolate would do wonders (& i was right!).
except it turned into a lot of chocolate.
but that's okay :)
(& for those of you still worried about my hair, we decided to wash it a few times & see what happens - usually it lightens a good deal, so i'm hoping that's the case this time, even with the hormones! then i'll just have to go back if i'm still not happy. thanks for caring! haha! )